5th year.

Hi 'Pa,

Wow, it's been five years already.  Can you believe that?  I still can't, you know.  I still can't get over that feeling of nothingness, whenever we get to talk about you.  I talk about you as if you're still here with us.   I still feel special just talking about the love you have shown me, ate and mama; the love I still have in me.

Hmmm...so far I've been okay, mama has been sooo hands on with taking care of me, I wish I saw how she was when I was younger and was still finding my way through the world.  Not that I'm saying that I don't need her, but I guess if I had known sooner, I would've been smarter in my decisions.   But it's never too late, isn't it?  Mama and I are closer now, the thing that I've always envied ate of.

Jibreel's growing so fast, papa.  If you can only see how he makes faces whenever we talk to ate over the Skype.  Hahaha.  We always say, "Kung buhay pa si papa, at nakita si Jibreel, tatawagin nya 'tong 'Bruno'."  I know you don't like kids that much; mama used to say that, too.  But when mama saw Jibreel...I guess she forgot she even said that she doesn't like kids.

I'm busy with work, well, it's been a work-home-work-home routine for me for the past weeks.  About me and goatie?  Sometimes, I can't help but say, "I wish papa was still here.", because if you're here, you'd know what to say and do.

No, papa, I won't be crying this time.  Well, I won't promise that I won't, but I'll try my best not to.  A lot of things remind me of you, how things were when you were still with us.

I miss you so much, papa.  Thank you for everything.

xxx,

PX

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[Binchee]

Found you! I miss my Dad too.